Feel like jumping off a cliff ?

Okay, so I have been single all my life and have been desperately looking for a nice suitable datable guy! Okay, not desperate. Just someone to laugh with cry with, some who will buy me flowers! Send me texts in the morning saying have a lovely day! I know, I know it sounds all corny but it is a fact and I don’t care what anybody thinks, and all you fucked up retards who failed to give me all the happiness I truly deserved, shall rot in hell, wait no actually I hope you people will kill your own self’s over a girl who rejected you!!!! Mauahhaha …. Ahh argh !!

So the point, I got asked by this “guy” (a real guy, who wears pointy toe shoes, got class and all, yes I accept it). So even he asked me to spend time with him for Valentines Day, what am I to think?? I mean I knew him before but he never expressed himself towards me like that. So I’m just queries… what if he is planning to humiliate me and torture me, and abuse me and just use me! And throw me away like a piece of trash! (Note: the results of staying with my mother for more then I’m supposed to). Sigh … I want to have a perfect life while I’m in university! Bitch! That just reminded me I haven’t actually got accepted in a university! I’m totally depressed over that! Truly truly depressed ….

Actually you know what, I don’t mind be single all my life, just please get me into a university … Please lord please …

The Twilight movie characters ?!?! Good enough ?

Edward - perfect

Bella –Just wasn’t the right Bella , seriously !!

Charlie – Just how I imagined it

Carlisle – hehe hottest dad indeed

Alice- perfect

Jasper – hehe very good

Emmet – perfect

Rosalie – she didn’t look amazingly beautiful at all

Jacob – alright, could have done better

Victoria – not a good one

James – perfect

Laurient – opposite of what I imagined but he wasn’t bad

Jessica- alright

Angela- perfect

Mike – Very nice

This very hard moment.

Faking a laugh,

Faking a smile,

Hiding the truth behind a mask,

While my heart is breaking into pieces with every smile that I give.

That’s the life that I live

Used to believe in fairy tales, thinking it’s a beautiful world,

Then I was appalled with the truth that this world holds

I tried to fool myself and hide behind my dreams,

Tried to make everything as simple as it seems

But deep inside,

There were thousands of bursting tears,

With every smile that I used to give that’s the life that I live

Ended up with a broken heart,

Ended up with my life ripped apart.

Ended up left alone in the darkness,

Crying,

Gave up and just quit trying…

(Don’t know where I got it from but had it in my computer, remind me who gave this)