Prom 2008

I realized that i haven’t put anything up about my prom nite. Ah well it was nightmare , getting ‘rejected’ by my crush ! … enough said no going in detailed about that. Then came my second option the good old Samesa , his my old school mate and apparently lived down my road , that he-bitch wants to tell me that he cant come just one week before prom, then ofcourse came the good old sandeep , what a fucktard , works in an architect firm , dad got him to come with me , but a day before prom he tells me he’ll call me but never does , therefore Sarah goes alone to prom . and this was my last prom for Christs sake ! now do you know how ….uncool that is …going to prom without a date . what would you tell you kids ?? …. that you went to the prom alone ?? … wait that’s if i get married and have kids … okay major depression coming my way .

so yea … the day of the prom , all year 13’s got early break to go set up at the Raddison for prom ! and ofcourse mark and vinila came late … so we had to wait for them .. well actaully had to wait for vinila coz we were gonna go for a girls shopping day !! ..yaa … but i had to leave early and go home , coz i told my mum i’d be home by 1 … but actaully reached at 2 but no one was at home .. coz that weekend my cousin wedding. everyone was busy with that … and no one really cared what i wore and stuff … ah depressing shit right there.

Anyways prom went pretty okay ,i met Melisers date must sya he was pretyy cute … and i also met vinials date …. now even bigger stories behind that .Anways i got pictures . . . enjoy.

YouTube addict !

yes it is offical that I have now turned into kyril ! Being watching too many things on youtube. So i thought of sharing some of my fav videos, all may not be nice but yea .

Well this guy has beautifully sang my fav song , nahin saamne and i reckon his pretyy good .

And perhaps this wasnt too bad either .

Okay this girl is tops man, listen to her sing !!

Hmm he should be a singer , yet again one of my favs ghuncha koi mere naam kar diya

how cute is this guys accent … makes u fall in love .

i wanna dacne like this woman , shes good.

man , i dnt think these guys won , but they should have they were awesome , but i reckon they were bounching too much but no complains they did justice to the song .

Lastly …JUSTIN WELLINGTON !! fuck i love him !! … islander baby … ur my world ur my fireeee …. hot  hot hot … Love the way he moves man …

I shall let you know if i have any other favs ..they keep changing .. haha

x

Good news or the bad news ?

Good news university applications close on the December 15 !! woohoo !! that mean i can … keep dragging on …to write my personal statement. Bad news – i still have to write it.

Man , i’m getting so excited for my holidays in Japan , i’m just hoping dad doesn’t change his mind,  he always freaking does. but this time he wont coz he never let me go to india !! so yea … different reasons,  and can these bombers stop freaking bombing everywhere.  next thing i know , i wont be able to go anywhere. other wise , i dont feel that down today. just been a normal bum today. got my room cleaned up !! ha finally , i dont know how mum always managers to find things that i have to throw out of room .. coz other wise i dont feel i need to throw out anything out of my room. my mum doesnt like me keeping my art works , she just doesnt see the point of them , or rather ..them as my work . haha i often have to and take my art works out of trash before , now it has lessened by the day. thank god to that.

been texting vinila all day long. she in suva and apparently have a ball ! arrgh ! hate her. i want to go to suva theres so many things to do there and boys !! wow !! kill me now . our school is such a sucker when it comes to boys ! no real stuff to drool over . wait there is but may i highlight that they all younger then us . god . what a waste of guys …who dont have me and vinila in there class. … and meliser i dont think it makes a difference to her. and young ?? do we wanna go there … i thought so too .

i wish i could type like this when i was writing my english essays. truely when i write my essays i have to have my msn window open bitching to vinila and hav bebo and faceook on firfox and … then just write like two lines every half an hour . and then not being able to finish it . somehow i dont take that much effort in writing my essay any more, coz it feels like a waste of time and effort. i should be given an award for being a the bum of the year. i will then at least be famous .

i talked to an old school mate …named : Fane ! Fijian girl , she was alright but something seriously wrong with her. and of course our dear fatema hated her to bits. i rememeber when it was her birthday at school , we all used to be in the same year , she got pizza for the whole class being a snob that she was, anyhw me and fatema all hyped up to go eat pizza …right …what happens ..fatema hated fane and i was kidna alright with her …coz … she didnt do anything to me … dont knw what the problem was with fatema .. so anyways … the pizza right ..when it came … me and fatema went all jolly and ready to the pizza …. when we arrived to the pizza boxes we realized that the pizza had ham in it . both out smiles were gona by that time. coz fane knew we diodnt eat ham . she was such a pain … then fatema was like .. so now u know why i hate fane .. i was likeee yeaaaaaaaa totally get u .

this is all i can blab coz i gotta go and set my books !! yea i said books .

Problems growing up!! NOT YET !!

Someone i know from the day I was born made a statement that I did 90% of the things that I wanted. From my point of view it obviously has to be wrong. Because it is nothing like that. If I did the things I really wanted, trust me I wouldn’t be like this. I just wouldn’t be going to a private school paying $10,000Fijian dollars a year, being a deputy head girl of International School Nadi, which basically everyone hates me in school and doing the subjects I just seriously hate deep down from my heart … Business and Management??? I HATE that subject. I JUST HATEEEEEEEE IT ! Calculate the fucking profit and then the paid back period and the LIFO and FIFO … I mean WHAT THE FUCK MAN ?? … I don’t wanna do that I jst don’t !! I soo wanted to history but nooooooo, then the school didn’t offer any history !!

Why the fuck i couldn’t be at the local school! I loved it there I was so popular, everyone loved, it was my starting year high school. Had lots of Fijian guy admires! Had two fucked up kids I used to sit with and I reckon they secretly liked each other. Anyways, moving back to my issue. I want to go to university to visual arts! But that doesn’t mean people can keep rubbing it in my soul and body that it’s a useless thing. Fine !! its useless buy that’s really what IIIIII want to do. I don’t want to do interior design, that’s crap ! .. well its okay , I wanna do animation and be a photographer and travel the world. And doing something with no rules. I hate coming from an Indian background, coz if I take one step and saying what I wanna do , it takes me 100 steps backwards and then I’m told to just deal with it. I cannot DEAL with it anymore. I just wanna burst into tears  and scream and kill and .. I dnt know .. jst doing something to make my inner self better.

Lately my life is just into pieces, and right now I don’t know where all my pieces go, I’m so complicated. I try to do something but its always wrong. I’m confused … I make no sense at all , and I jst become angry at every little things.

I’m not looking forward to school, coz I have to do thing that are just so challenging , though … before I used to love challenges and was always ready to face the world with my little brain and I was geared up to tell everyone to shut up coz Sarah was gonna speak. But now its different I just don’t have that spark in me anymore. I just a big loser.

Yes! so apparently , I’m having difficulties in growing up.

I just cant let go my childhood.

x

Check list ?

Currently loving the song ‘No Air’ by Jordan Sparks & Chris brown!! Ah makes me really get into it. Yea, Practically I have been an emotional fool latterly . . . it’s the age, trust me. Today was the last day of school, well term three and obviously all the teachers had to load us with revision work. I’m actually scared of going more deeper into this holidays mostly because this means I have to start studying seriously for my exams, ah its slowly creeping from my back. University applications are already driving me nuts; I mean I have only seen like the first form of it and it has such a big impact on my little tiny world. Personal statements . . . portfolio? . . . Stab me right now someone.

Oh and I now literally hate my phone. Because my alarm never rings for some weird reason. And I don’t get any texts or calls. [Hint hint for you tards, go text me].

Let’s have a look at my list of events and stuff I been through this year. Don’t worry their is more to add but can’t remember;

Check list for 2008.

• Bye 2007!!
• Start of second year of diploma – 30 January
• Teachers poking everyone’s ass
• Extended essay meetings
• BAM meetings
• Social at school drama.
• Term one ends – 4^th April

SUFFER

• Term two starts – 15^th July
• Teachers poke everyone’s asses even more,
• All French orals due!
• English orals due!
• Mid year exams.
• English World Lit’s 1 & 2 due
• TOK first draft
• Extended essays due! Fucking 4,000 words
• Tok Oral presentations
• INDIA TRIP !
• Term two ends – 27^th June

SUFFER

• Term three starts – 15^th July
• Teachers poke everyone’s asses way more.
• Physics lab’s due
• Maths project due
• Mock exams [bum]
• TOK essays due.
• Prom nite. [All alone.fuck u sandeep! I’ll cme and bite ur head off]
• Parent teacher interview
• Prediction grades go out
• BAM IA’s due. [SUCH A BITCH ASSESSMENT]
• Term three ends – 19^th September

SUFFERING

• TERM FOUR BEGINS – 7^th October
• Art exhibition [have to get a seven]
• last day for school. YES !!!
  
• Farwell dinner from school
• IB NOVEMBER EXAMS START
• Physics paper 1 & 2 – 4^th Nov
• Physics paper 3 – 5^th Nov
• Business & Management Paper 1 – 6^th Nov
• Business & Management Paper 2 – 7^th Nov

Mathematical Studies Paper 1 (afternoon)

• Mathematical studies Paper 2 – 10^th November
• English – paper 1 – 12^th November
• English paper 2 – 13^th November
• French paper 1 & 2 – 21^st November
• PARTYYYY !!!
• New Zealand ! [ dad?]
• Japan with Karen for sureeeeeee woohoo.
• Birthday !!! yaya 18 finally .
  
• Shyam buys me a camera !! ahh cant wait.
  
• gonna miss wong and vinila . xo
  
• Find myself a boyfriend.